I have to be over at the VA in the morning to start my next round of fun. Since Bauer has changed the shuttle  schedule, I don’t have quite the flexibility of before. Instead of 0915, the last one heads to the VA just after eight.  Since I finished up the last remaining testing on Monday and had blood drawn then I can jump in with a bang (or something) as soon as I get there.  That is probably ok considering I am facing several infusions plus liters of hydration. And non-excitement, boredom and a rapid decent into crabbiness.

Oh, doesn’t that sound like just so much fun?

Not. But since I’m not interested in joining the ranks of palliation, I’m going with the best presented alternative. Surgery, as in tumor de-bulking, still isn’t an option. Not that I am in love with surgeon’s or their trade mind you, I was just looking alternatives. I like the option of radiation even less. So here I am contemplating nausea, hair loss and at least a few days every three weeks of total disagreeable nastiness. Not the effects from the chemo directly, mind you, but my likely effect on the rest of the family. Prednisone is so not my friend. Unfortunately, it isn’t just in the line up as a blunter of side effects but as an active contributor to the program I can’t just skip it. Some people it makes depressed, others it turns into homicidal maniacs. Be glad I don’t do fire arms…..

I managed to run a few errands today, pretty much ignored the garage, knit for a while and made a bit more progress on the cross-stitch in-progress.

I’m thinking a good nights sleep tonight wouldn’t be a bad thing at all.

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About Holly

fiber person - knitter, spinner, weaver who spent 33 years being a military officer to fund the above. And home. And family. Sewing and quilting projects are also in the stash. After living again in Heidelberg after retiring (finally) from the U.S. Army May 2011, we moved to the US ~ Dec 2015. Something about being over 65 and access to health care. It also might have had to do with finding a buyer for our house. Allegedly this will provide me a home base in the same country as our four adult children, all of whom I adore, so that I can drive them totally insane. Considerations of time to knit down the stash…(right, and if you believe that…) and spin and .... There is now actually enough time to do a bit of consulting, editing. Even more amazing - we have only one household again. As long as everyone understands that I still, 40 years into our marriage, don't do kitchens or bathrooms. For that matter, not being a golden retriever, I don't do slippers or newspapers either. I don’t miss either the military or full-time clinical practice. Limiting my public health/travel med/consulting and lecturing to “when I feel like it” has let me happily spend my pension cruising, stash enhancing (oops), arguing with the DH about where we are going to travel next and book buying. Life is good!
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16 Responses to Tomorrow

  1. Alison says:

    Ouch. You have my profound sympathies. I HATE pred.

  2. Kathy says:

    I will be thinking of you today and hoping the chemo will be as gentle as possible on you.

  3. Pat K says:

    Stay strong.
    My positive thoughts are with you.

  4. Steven says:

    (((((Holly))))). That’s for tomorrow

  5. Pat says:

    HUGS. Take good care of yourself, please? Wishing you the best.

  6. Cheryl says:

    I’m still praying! What regimen are you going with?

  7. BIll R says:

    Thank you for the heads up on your therapy. . no hat yet but should be there when I return Friday. .

  8. Vera says:

    Keeping my fingers crossed for this one to work.
    Btw, you will look just as lovely without hair as with your new, probably curly, hairdo after this is over.

    • Holly says:

      thanks for that thought – but I am not facing the world without hair is not a possibility. Now – do I go for the natural look or completely insane?

  9. Carmen says:

    I hope the best, that it goes well and you don’t feel like heck.
    How many treatments?

    • Holly says:

      eight cycles all told. Every three weeks – give or take. Mostly they give and I receive…

  10. Christian says:

    As far as I remember, even if you would do fire arms, you’d likely to forget your personal side arm somewhere, not really being aware of the fact that you’re unarmed and finally having a hard time to find out where you left it… (Maybe because you’re a doc and not infantry 😉

    Good luck, I think of you!

    • Holly says:

      No – actually crying a side arm was never an issue. And, as we both know, I certainly spent enough months deployed in personal weapons carry zones.

      Forgetting it – losing it – is a serious courts martial offense in the US military

      and having commanded enough times – lead by example

  11. Isobel says:

    Good luck!

  12. Cat says:

    Damn – and I don’t usually swear but…
    And a hug from your Downunder sister

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