this morning (or early afternoon) I finished presenting the last lecture that I had promised for a Cal School of Public Health course. Actually – it was three lectures, with the fourth in this series having been last Thurs. The semester ends this week. Their exams start sometime next.
For someone who is capable of chatting with friends for hours, I really don’t like lecturing. Even when I have come to know most of those in the class, it still feels uncomfortable. Perhaps this is “imposter syndrome” that is so common to women of my generation. Or my lack of time in being able to completely re-write the lectures from what John has put together. He does them casually and fluently. OTOH – he has been teaching this particular course for 35 years – so his ability with the material probably should not be my standard. He is an ID (Infectious Disease) doc where as my background in Occupational Medicine, Travel Medicine, disaster planning, and policy means that I really don’t care about the mechanisms of the specific pathway that X enters a cell – it is enough for me to know that someone has figured it out – and Y interferes with that mechanism. If I need more than that – I can look it up.
So, here I am with the rest of the day stretching ahead of me….
and the rest of the day just sort of drifted away…