As I settled comfortably into my chair facing the computer screens (large in the middle, laptop to the left, laptop to the right) I started reflecting that I have been here just over a month. I am housed, fed, employed and working on a number of projects.
Shrugging my shoulders, I am ready to get down to work when my brain stutter-steps and freezes.
I try it again, a simple shoulder shrug. Easy, comfortable and weightless.
No harness, no weight, nothing banging on my sides or resting against my hip while I sit.
I never had an issue in the Balkans. Sliding into my shoulder holster was second nature before leaving the container in the morning. For most of the time I was in Kuwait, we weren’t wearing weapons on a regular basis, but when I was, wandering off without it simply wasn’t an issue.
But now? Brain dead or psychological block?
In any case, I am trying to figure out a fool-proof system as I trudge back to my B-Hut. Picking up weapon and harness rig from the floor where it was set to trip me on the way out, I contemplate other solutions. Desk has not worked. On top of uniforms hasn’t worked. In front of the door has worked most mornings but not today. Something tells me that wrapped around my boots would be a lost cause as well.
What do you think of a hook next to the door so that I can’t open the door without grabbing my weapon?