Weapon? What weapon?

As I settled comfortably into my chair facing the computer screens (large in the middle, laptop to the left, laptop to the right) I started reflecting that I have been here just over a month. I am housed, fed, employed and working on a number of projects.

Shrugging my shoulders, I am ready to get down to work when my brain stutter-steps and freezes.

I try it again, a simple shoulder shrug. Easy, comfortable and weightless.

No harness, no weight, nothing banging on my sides or resting against my hip while I sit.

No Weapon.

Not again.

I never had an issue in the Balkans. Sliding into my shoulder holster was second nature before leaving the container in the morning. For most of the time I was in Kuwait, we weren’t wearing weapons on a regular basis, but when I was, wandering off without it simply wasn’t an issue.

But now? Brain dead or psychological block?

In any case, I am trying to figure out a fool-proof system as I trudge back to my B-Hut. Picking up weapon and harness rig from the floor where it was set to trip me on the way out, I contemplate other solutions. Desk has not worked. On top of uniforms hasn’t worked. In front of the door has worked most mornings but not today. Something tells me that wrapped around my boots would be a lost cause as well.

What do you think of a hook next to the door so that I can’t open the door without grabbing my weapon?

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9 Responses to Weapon? What weapon?

  1. Angeluna says:

    Funny, I think.

  2. Ron says:

    i used an old favorite, checklist on the door frame.

    weapon, PT belt, CAC, hat, sunglasses, keys, camera…etc. It evolved over the deployment. I, too, suffered from some form of “forgetsies” – thought it might be due to understimulation or depression or both. Brain just did not feel as sharp as usual.

    Leaving the CAC in the computer at work was always the worst – 20 minute drive one way to get it again…

  3. ruth says:

    You could think of it as a pocketbook. OK, maybe not.

  4. Mary says:

    Can you keep it inside a boot? Wouldn’t you put your boots on last, so when you remove it from your boots to insert your foot, you could instantly strap it on?

    How fruatrating and scary, too.

    I always leave things by the door to remind myself to take when I leave and sometimes I can have thousands of other things on my mind and walk right over it. So the solution would appear to go thru a process of creating an internal checklist since it is something you must have everyday and before you know it, it will become instinctual.

  5. Diane says:

    Hook on the back of the door sounds like a plan. Would also make for a good way of ensuring you had privacy as who could open a door with a weapon blocking the entrance? Carving a likeness out of soap or possibly wood would help you pass the time and also make for a lighter load. 🙂 I could send you some paints or tape to make it more realistic 🙂

    I take it that you have to have your weapon(s) with you at all times even if this means putting your back/shoulders out in the process?

  6. Christian says:

    What about under Your pillow?

    It always worked with me…

    Bond. James Bond.


  7. Ann says:

    Perhaps this means it’s time for you to retire???? Besides, isn’t it against the moral code for a doctor to carry a weapon? Hahahah. I think it just means it’s time to retire. Good luck!

  8. Mark says:

    You have to try to develop muscle memory for wearing it. What is the last think you do remember to take every day?

  9. April says:

    what do you carry to work every day? fasten it on that

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