I am working very hard on pretending that yesterday didn’t really exist. Shall I just leave it at “it wasn’t a great day.” I should have expected it. I finished the 5th cycle of chemo just a couple of days before and today felt almost like a withdrawal. I have gone off caffeine a couple of times in my life, neither of which were particularly fun. This was along the same lines minus some of the headache severity.
Anyway – I was looking for small accomplishments. Three loads of laundry topped my list. One was bed linens, the other two just the normal amount of personal clothing that accumulated over the last week or two.
Every time I attempted to do anything else, something went wrong. I rapidly became frustrated at having to pull out stitches and do them again. Giving up, I retreated to computer games. The worst that happens is that I have to reboot the computer if I totally screw things up.
Things this morning seem a bit saner. I have managed to nuke the last of yesterday’s coffee and put in a few hundred stitches on some new coral in the current release for the Deadly Aquarium.
From there? Probably work a couple of hours on one of the left over SALs from previous years before putting sometime into the current projects.
The morning fog (marine layer) has gradually pulled back so that I can now see across the street and partly down the hill from the upstairs windows. There are faint outlines of trees, but the Bay isn’t visible yet. OTOH – no thunderstorms or tornados – so there is that.
Dear Holly,
You’re resilience incarnate. You sail serenely across a sea of troubles that would leave mere mortals catatonic, alcoholic, or a hermit in the New Zealand outback. You brave SF’s awful traffic for five hours of chores, tend the unwell, support your children and their pets, cross stitch up a storm, and still find time to increase the quantity and quality of your blog posts.
But even you deserve a day off. A good computer game leaves us delightfully dissociated, letting time pass quickly and painlessly, something meditation promises but rarely achieves.